hey, as I'm writing this it was my birthday yesterday, 27 now ... I'm old.

I haven't been writing on here as much as I thought I would,
I took my site down last time cause it was too overwhelming and a faff to work with and while now thats not been a problem anymore I think I still expect too much of myself in terms of doing things

I was going to write a personal post but I don't know if I want to?, this is my site and I am able to do so here and not filter myself for anything and if someone doesn't want to read then they can click off but a part of me still feels.. weird when talking about sensitive topics on the internet even in my small space here
its a hard feeling to shake

life has not been too kind to me in the past and nowadays I still have issues, not ones like I had been going through before thats for sure but still there

tho it has gotten more easier and I can say that now without any doubt in my mind even if I am still dealing with things
its gonna be alright I just have to keep going (as much as I'm typing that now and only partly believing in it :P)

and maybe I'll share some of that life of mine here the good and the bad when I do feel more comfortable but I'm not going to pressure myself to do so on that at all.


thanks for reading yet another short ramble if anyone has, despite me not really doing much with this site I still want to keep it up as I know they'll be times when I do have something to put here at whenever I want to I'm sure.