this is going to be a blog post about a small park I use to ride to on my bike and it being taken over by construction work for something else entirely

so in I'd say nearish to the start of 2024 I got a small folding bike, folding because it was easy to tuck away if needed, I hadn't rode a bike in a long time at that point but it wasn't that difficult to pick up again

near me I have the canal that is nice for rides out so started to do so, did a couple rides to a park and back on various days going slightly further and further until I settled on just riding to the park, along with me a backpack with some lunch, drink and I begin to read again so took a book with me

it was just really nice times getting away from being stuck inside all the time, the park was nothing much just a fairly small side one along the canal path with the usual benches, playground and grassy patch

for the times I visited it, it was peacefull, I was having calming moments there which I could really tell by how my breathing was when I was sat down, slow
another thing with me is when I'm eating if I'm anxious I eat a bit fast.. too fast sometimes but not here in this park I was eating slowly, which was something.

I think it was nearish to the end of 2025 that I saw the park I had been going to for a fair while was inaccessible because.. construction work had begun

I didn't get to read the signs as they had small text that I just couldn't read so I went home feeling miffed,

things like this happen all the time in this country
if a unused space is free then its likely going to be built on for whatever reason as its "free real estate" as the meme says

which for me being autistic loosing that is a real damn shame, its now not a place I can go to, a place that is familiar to me, a place where I know I can have a fairly nice time and not have to spend money to visit (which is also another matter entirely)

and while there are other places, I'll miss what that small side canal park gave me.

thanks for reading this ramble of mine, have a nice rest of your day <3 - Nathan