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when I refer to education here I live in the Uk so its the Uk's system (to save me typing it out what that is just look it up)

with my mutism It was mostly the education setting where I had difficulties, I was completely fine with Family and some instances outside of that

Hello today I just want to ramble about some of my life being autistic for a bit,

I didn't always know that I was autistic until only really a couple years ago I'd say, its through learning online and being not directly but in a somewhat suttle way told I was through family (eg brought up in convo like "such and such is autistic aswell"),

a major thing for me was that I was a Mute throughout education, my anxieties were deep rooted in me that I just couldn't talk,

for a time in highschool that changed for awhile when I felt comfortable enough to speak in 1 class with students and teachers I had become fimilar with,

that didn't last for long unfortunately as when I moved into college I completely shut down again and wasn't able to open up to anyone there.

after finishing college years ago I've spent some time elsewhere enough to be comfortable with speaking again but on a "need to basis"

I still struggle with the conversation stuff.

for a long time I didn't know muteism is one of the things that is stemmed from being autistic.

I wish I learnt about that sooner and more so wish others did to, maybe then the right support and help would've been given,

but for alot of things with neurodivergence/autism still people haven't, either they don't care/have the time/ or with education there isn't the right systems in place to support us

it can lead to many like me to... fall through the cracks

I Hope one day that can change even if its a slow road its one worth taking.

sorry for this being a sad one but this is what my blog is for stuff like this y'know?

I'll leave you with one of my favourite songs about autism I've listened to so many times by now

its A Portrait of an Autist by the lovely Dan Bull (who you may know from many Minecraft and gaming based Raps)

"We ought to stick aroundBe autistic and proud We ought to stick around We ought to stick"

I've felt so in tune with this song and its really helped me alot in the past.